久违的部落格

好久都没有写部落了，今天会想写是因为不想讲话。
有的事情，就算你说或解释一千遍，那个人也不会理解。因为他根本没站在你的立场去想。
原本想要被理解的我，却被误解了。这真的让我觉得很难受，就像被全世界反对的感觉...
只想做好自己本分的我，被人家说：“不，你错了。这一切都是你造成的。”
有时候真的很想把心中的话说出来，但是，我真的很讨厌解释。
那么，就让你继续误解吧。反正你总觉得你自己是对的，其他人永远都是错的。
只想说，当一个人被好朋友误解，是很孤单的...

愛情真的不需要回報嗎? 你相信嗎?

愛情真的不需要回報嗎? 你相信嗎?

This is so trueee!!

时间：一天晚上。

地点：躺在床上。

人物：相互喜欢的双方。

女生很想他，于是决定给他发一条短信： 你睡了吗？在干嘛呢？呵呵，我们还在说话呢。据说明天要降温，多穿点衣服呀！！其实--- 其实--- 我现在挺想你的！！ 考虑了一分钟，把短信改成： 你睡了吗？在干嘛呢？呵呵，我们还在说话呢。据说明天要降温，多穿点衣服呀！！ 又考虑了一分钟： 你睡了吗？在干嘛呢？呵呵，我们还在说话呢。 又一分钟： 你睡了吗？在干嘛呢？ 又一分钟： 睡了吗？在干嘛？ 然后，她按了确定发送的键！ ( 叹气....) 男生的手机响了！男生抓起来一看果然是她，莫名的激动起来！赶紧给她回短信： 我还没有睡呢，现在正在上网。呵呵，我们宿舍也正热闹的起劲！！听说明天要降温，别忘了多穿衣服呀！其实-- 其实-- 咱们明天一起吃饭吧？ 考虑了一分钟： 我还没有睡呢，现在正在上网。呵呵，我们宿舍也正热闹的起劲！！听说明天要降温，别忘了多穿衣服呀！ 又考虑了一分钟： 我还没有睡呢，现在正在上网。 又一分钟： 上网。 然后，他按了确定发送的键！ ( 叹气....) 有没有试过这样的情况，你喜欢的那个人，你居然会不敢和他说话。 写一个短信给你，到了最后一秒，居然就会删除。 左想右想，怕你知道我的心轻视我，怕哪句话说不好让你不开心， 更怕的是，如果忙忘记了或者因为别的原因没有回应，有多么尴尬。 写一封邮件给你，写了一千字，删除掉八百字。 去掉我想念你，去掉所有的心情，去掉天气，去掉自己刚刚看的电影， 去掉自己昨天心情不好以及今天心情好的原因，去掉所有和感情相关的字眼， 仿佛公事公办的，变成三行的邮件，到了最后，居然也没有发出去。 不喜欢的人，可以容易地讲个笑话，随便地发个短信， 甚至，打去电话问对方有什么节目以便随时去参加。 喜欢的，却变成心里的死穴一个，动都不敢动，甚至，看到的时候，话都说不出来。 喜欢某个人，偏偏见到他，一句话没有。 看着旁边的朋友和他谈笑风生，心里又嫉妒又着急。 暗示或者表白心际，一句我爱你，永远不丢人。 如果我想你了 我会掏出手机 看看有没有你的短信 即使我知道 几率是那么的渺茫 如果我想你了 我会在手机上飞速的打下一连串的对你说的话 最后却始终没有按下发送的键 只是不想打扰你 如果我想你了 我会看我们的短信记录 不管是什么样的对话 始终有种甜蜜的感觉 因为在你面前 我好像总是长不大 如果我想你了 我会借同学的手机拨你的电话号码 然后假装打错的样子挂断 因为那样我会知道 你是停机关机还是开机 如果我想你了 我会想 你是不是会想我呢？ 哪怕 只有一秒钟的时间... 如果我想你了 我会听你推荐给我的音乐 细品歌词中的字字句句 如果我想你了 我会把思念换作节拍 让它在双手交辉中流露 如果我想你了 我会学着你的语气对自己说话 有的话很假 有的话很肉麻 如果我想你了 我会照镜子 审视着这样的我 能否匹配这样的你 如果我想你了 我会哭 不会像以前那样给你电话给你短信 只会一个人躲在寝室偷着哭 然后 在你来电话的时候 假装放了静音 不接 之后平淡的发个短信回去 问你有事么 如果我想你了 其实没有如果 每天都很想你 电脑桌面是你 手机主题是你 Mp3相册是你 一切的一切都是你 我想我想你了，你想我了吗？

Cutie Pie - Chin Ninnnn's Birthday Bashh

Today is Chin Nin's BIG DAY!
Mae Yee the Myre aka the planner had planned everything to surprise the B'day girl
BUT
the plan is failed due to some funny reasons:

1. everyone is late :(

2. the b'day girl's father had forgotten to block her from coming out of the house. :((

3. where is her house??? :(((

We wait wait wait and wait for the b'day girl to come

she went to cut off her long-time-no-cut-super-duper-long-myre before she go to Australia because the barber in Australia is expensive.

While waiting...

1st stop!

we walk, stand and chit chat around.

2nd stop!

we went to McD for ice-cream!

Kwok Hoe the rich guy belanja-ed all of us ice-creammm

3rd stop!

we went for POOL!!!

I'm in love with pool and I learned how to play when I was at South Africa.

Guess what?

I'm Mae Yee's SiFu!!!! :D

and we won the game against Aaron and Kai Ling =)

Kwok Hoe, Aaron and Chung Eeeeee =)

Taken a pic before we leave

Camwhore while waiting Aaron

Our friendship band!!

Thx to Mae Yee aka The Great of Myre

Present exchange session at the place where we eat pasta (forgotten the name)

Chin Nin and Mae Yee cried like nobody's business

usually I will cry

maybe I've left me tears at South Africa & maybe because I'm not the one leaving

and so,

Aaron and me enjoyed the most touching movie in LIVE SHOW!

the actresses are just infront of us!

Omg...im so dark..........

after that...

we went to Secret Recipe and bought Chin Nin's favorite choc cake

seriously...the background behind... i mean the black-white picture looks like...aheeemmm...i dont have to say right? :S

camwhoring in da toilett

last camwhore before we leave!

sun is killing me

Almost everyday exposed to the sun more than 5 hours
my skin is really dark and pain now =(
BUT
I still love the beach and the sun =D

went to the lagoon at Mnyameni today
its actually near from Port Edward but it takes more than 2 hours to get in to that paradise because we have to use the rocky, muddy and shakey road
on the way in to the lagoon,
there are lots of little cottage and plantations like corn and other kinds of unknown plants
beside the road,
we can always meet the little black children age around 2-10 asking for sweets
they will ask for sweets like the voice of beetle bugs
for example,
"sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeetsssssssssssssss"
then we'll throw some sweets out of the window for them
LOL! its cute and funny!
it is actually a sad case when you see this
because they are so desperate of sweets and everything untill a group of them can fight for 1 candy or 1 RANDS( RM0.50)
SAD! =(
okay~ just hope that they stay and live well there =D

Don't know why I just feel that my luck is not really good nowadays
I keep on losing stuffs and drop stuffs and it wasn't my fault
just now when I went swimming,
I placed my flip flops on the sand
after some chatting session with Rhino,
I found out that the sea water had rised from the normal sea level and the sand is all covered up by the sea water
WTF??!! I quickly went to look for my flip flops
unfortunatelly, I can't find them
John told me that my shoe wouldn't go far as the water just rised up
probably is those blacks beside the beach saw it and they keep it for themselves
I went and asked them but they said they didn't see any shoes =.=ll...
FINE! I miss my flip flops and I dont' feel like buying a new one
and stupid Craig used something that people used to whack animals to whack me
that is supa dupa PAIN lo! and I have the mark on my fat thighs now
this reminds me of my primary school life - being whacked by teacher

anyways~ some people is acting too over nowadays and I can't stand looking at her stupid actions. She just spoiled our image! Makes people think that we Chinese are that "cheap".

okay~ gtg write report and pig now!good night!

ExciteD

Damn exciting now!!
yesss!!!
Tomorrow is the day!
I'm going to South Africa!!!
I'll try to update when I reach there (watch out cb yeee =P)
I really have to update d
my bloggie....
its rusting :(
dears, darlings and friends,
TAKE CARE!!
see you next year!
gonna sleep now~
I really don't want to be a panda in the Safari!
Goooooooood Night!

my tarot cards description

Card Description
Context - This card reflects the general over view of your present situation.

Focus - This card reflects a new set of circumstances that are about to or just have presented themselves to you. This is your central issue at this time.

Outcome - This card reflects the outcome of the Focus Card. The results of your problems solving/decision making.
Context - The Lovers
Decisions cannot be made solely by the heart, or by the mind. It is the marriage of the two that can lead us to make the right choices of life. Neither side should be ignored. When choices confront you, you must step back and think logically about the situation and you must also consider how your heart reacts as well. Only when both halves of yourself are consulted can you follow the best course of action. Choices should never be made with only one point of view.

Focus - The Chariot
Ambition can be the driving force behind any journey, but can also be your downfall. You can not let your ambitions blind you to what is right in front of you. When this card appears, you need to temper your enthusiasm or else your aggression to succeed will ultimately lead to failure. Channel your energy positively and make your choices with a cool head. Like the chariot driver must control his horses, you also have to rein in your own passions. A strong will can easily get out of hand.

Outcome - The Tower
A very powerful card indeed. When this card appears, you can expect things to get worse before they get better. But rest assured, they will get better once the destruction has run its course. Many things are going to come tumbling down around you, regardless of your efforts to prevent it. At this point, change is necessary and you just have to let it happen so that something new can develop from the ruins. Try to look at the bigger picture rather than the unfortunate events to come.

stressss

wooooooooooooohoooooooooooooo~

i can feel my stress

which comes from nowhere

its driving me crazy

making me blank all the time

and

making me feeling sick of 4 of the walls in my hostel

i wanna go back...............

having a serious home sick i think.......

i miss my home

i miss the ants in my house

even the mosquitoes

and the smell of chicken shit fertilizer -.-

i just don't know who i can talk to...

i can just talk with my blog

i can't imagine next month

it's MOCK!!

it will be way more harder than any of the tests and exams

i'm just too weak to cope all of the subjects......

where can i buy a genious brain?

i would like to buy from him/her

now,

i can just feel stress and frustrated

i just like to hide myself nowadays

and

i don't know why

bio test

this is how we study =D
show ur pretty faceeeeeee

rajin betul! no one can fight!

what is Trisha doing?? her handphone can suck up metal!

here I am!!!

geng!

yeng!

this show that college life is really really tiring... ...

im tired

continuesly exam for 4 weeks
actually is 1 exam per week
but i spended all my time in preparing the exams
i can see pimples pooping out from my face
stress+frustrated=pimples

what am i scared of?
scared of being 'bombed' by other people
some people tend to cricticise people when they failed to achive something
is that necessary?
i don't see the point of cricticising and 'splashing cold water' to people
TELL ME WHY
both of you are my relatives
both of you are closer than anyone who knows me
but you are the one who hurts me
and you take it as a joke and you purposely ask me infront of the people
Congratulations!
you embarresed me.
Happy?

h@ppy birthday to my sis

Went Jusco after school and meet my eX-classmates
I can't believe that i'm kah yan's first friend passenger to sit her brand new Myvi =)
Note: luckily i've bought insurans
juz kidding lahh =P i trust u ;)
today should be our class gathering
although only 5 person attended
but we enjoyed our chatting session at Old Town

after that i went to Milwaukee for dinner because its my sis's birthday
i've ordered a plate of Long John
LOL
the taste is.........
ahemmm.....NORMAL
i planned to buy something for her from Spring Field =)
BUT
i really have to study for my Bio first
because i didn't really focus on it @~@
and my topic test and EE is around the corner
i already screwed my accounts
and i cannot afford to screw other subjects
IM SO SCAREDDDDDDDDDDDDD

meaningfull email from my beloved mother :)

A blind boy sat on the steps of a building with a hat by his feet.

He held up a sign which said: 'I am blind, please help.' There were only a few coins in the hat.

A man was walking by.

He took a few coins from his pocket and dropped them into the hat.

He then took the sign, turned it around, and wrote some words. He put the sign back so that everyone who walked by would see the new words.

Soon the hat began to fill up. A lot more people were giving money to the blind boy.

That afternoon the man who had changed the sign came to see how things were. The boy recognized his footsteps and asked, 'Were you the one who changed my sign this morning? What did you write?'

The man said, 'I only wrote the truth.

I said what you said but in a different way.'

What he had written was: 'Today is a beautiful day and I cannot see it.'

Do you think the first sign and the second sign were saying the same thing?

Of course both signs told people the boy was blind. But the first sign simply said the boy was blind. The second sign told people they were so lucky that they were not blind. Should we be surprised that the second sign was more effective?

Moral of the Story: Be thankful for what you have. Be creative. Be innovative. Think differently and positively.Invite others towards good with wisdom. Live life with no excuse and love with no regrets. When life gives you a 100 reasons to cry, show life that you have 1000 reasons to smile. Face your past without regret. Handle your present with confidence. Prepare for the future without fear. Keep the faith and drop the fear. Great men say, 'Life has to be an incessant process of repair and reconstruction, of discarding evil and developing goodness. In the journey of life, if you want to travel without fear, you must have the ticket of a good conscience.' The most beautiful thing is to see a person smiling!!And even more beautiful is, knowing that you are the reason behind it!

i suck

why why why
why am i so suckish?
i just suck at everything
i cannot even pass a stupid driving test -.-
ZZZzzzZZZzzzZZZz
im so tired of it
when will it end???
I JUST WANNA DRIVE
and my maths................
OMG
im so so stupid and i can't get more than 3 out of 5 percent

which crazy !@#$ are you?

this is so so true?

Sylvia Plath

You are one intense bitch. You are almost abnormally introspective but this is where your abundant creativity flows from. You love handsome, brilliant, creative genius types but you pay the price when their egos and lustful ways cause them to betray you. You are a very intelligent, classy lady with a black streak and can be very emotional at times. You do have a bit of a morbid side but your words often lead you to be misunderstood as a dark figure but that is just how you protect your soft mushy insides.

i think i kinda like someone O.o

good or bad?

i don't know

i just don't feel like wanna fall in love with anyone now @@

so "fan" -.-

timeless laaa

time is not enough for me nowadays..
oh god,can i have extra time?
ofcourse not!
im asking nonsense -.-ll..
my dear ching, called me just now...
miss her so so so X100000 much!!
and my another dear leen, dissapeared recently =(
she looks busy all the time
i know i look busy too!
but im really really super busy because of the exams
haiz~!
help me~
i knew that sometimes she came back from Malacca..
but she didn't inform me about that :(
too bad...haiz!
ching is gonna join the june intake of A-levels in Taylor's College~
although its not my school but atleast its nearby my school :D
then we can meet oftenly! YAYYY!!!
im waiting for that day!
aren't you ching? =P

Career exploration day @ Yakult

have u seen this before?

i wanna try all of this =)

Delicious~ i think @@"

Back to Primary school~ im the oldest i think =(

Place to breed Yakult-Lactic Acid Bacteria

Tanks tankS TaNkS

'HOMO'GENIZER :)

test tubes with yakult in it?

what's that called? hmm...anhydrous calcium nitrate? LOL

Tornado Yakult!!

I hope i can go inside and slide all the way down~ weeeee~~~

What a serious face

experiments @@

PRO

attaching straws to the Yakult bottles



Bye Yakult! see you at the market! ;)

there's Shirota bacteria inside~our tour guide @ Yakult staff

Bye Yakult!

went to Yu Hua~

after playing basketball~

had lunch at noodle express =)

some kind of soda juice~

IM LOVIN IT :D

went to fish spa since there was promotion for student

SEE THIS!

im not kidding!

lol

my fren asked me : how long you didn't wash your leg?

me : long time ago! >

actually i washed my leg but i didn't scurb u dead skin out laaa...

im not that discusting ok?

Dr Fish LOVES muaa leg =X

here is some BIG ones!

i can feel the bite!

its ticklish!!

woohooooo!!!!!

fear

im so scared laa

SPM results will be coming out SOON!!!

so SOON man

if my results is "good"

i will jump from KLCC!!

check out the newspaper next day ;)

atlast i can go back to my secondary school

miss my friends, LALA YU, teachers and also the beautiful view of my school!

miss everything!!!

IM BACK SSS!!!

and, what the hell?!

i got saman from my school's library!

makan my $$!!!

didn't return book on date need to charge RM1 -.-

think i very rich ah?

charge so expensive!

and i have to pay for RM28 =.=

because i borrow 2 books

and the due date is 2 weeks before today

finally,

I'M BROKE! T~T

on diet =)

im on diet nowadays

and i cooked in my hostel :D

can keep fit+save $$

see~~

looks nice right?

this is my first time cooking in hostel ^^

this egg is over COOKED..........

looks like moon right?

lol~

2nd day~looks better?

Yummy~~

tell me that I'm a good chef ;)

if wanna try then come to my hostel!!!

1 for RM 10!! cheap right? LOL =)

~♥MUA BIRTHDAY♥~

Its Valentines!

what a good good day for the couples~

including me too!!!

Don't misunderstand,

it's just my Birthday ;P

i'll never get to celebrate the V'day!

hahahahaha

i had organised a party at my house that day

actually i wanted to invite my other friends too

but unfortunately my mum don't let

because we had some problem in preparing food -.-ll...

because it is difficult to prepare so much food

since we're not professional chef @@"

All Hope+1 Charity=?

^^v

the girls who are preapring to go clubbing~


Male car model???




Kah Yan and her "wife's"

kiss kiss =)

im 18!!! OMG!!! really UNBELIEVABLEE!!

My Sweet Family~♥

BIG FAMILY =)

MY BESTIESS^^

MY 10 YEAR OLD FRIEND ;)

funny face of the day O.o

The Coupless!!!

what pose is that?

#smile~!#